September Summary
Walking: 146.1 km
Yoga: 3 hours, 45 minutes (14 days)
Running: 12km (4 runs)
Goals vs Reality
my only goal for September is to read the resources from my doctor, and action a few items from them
I started off strong here. I bookmarked a bunch of the links, I read about the medication, and I downloaded one of the many books on PPD and read the first two chapters.
But that was all in the first week and I kind of stopped. It was like I did too much,
or I was (still am) struggling to acknowledge that I have PPD. I haven’t started the meds yet.
I have good days. I have bad days. I still laugh and smile when playing with Princess T. But I also can’t stop worrying constantly. And I am irritated all the time (at myself, DH, always adults, never Princess T just to be clear on that).
I know meds will help. I know it’s the same as if I had a broken leg or another issue that there’s nothing wrong with taking meds for mental health. But I am struggling to accept that I need them.
I am going to try to read more of the book, maybe that will help.
And if I can keep up the daily yoga, that’s great. And if I can run 4-5 times this month, it’ll be fantastic.
Daily yoga not so much. Really dropped off the last two weeks. It was helping though so I need to figure out how to implement this better.
I can’t believe I actually ran 4 times! Like wow. All intervals and a couple “too ambitious” intervals, but they helped me get out of the house and really do something just for me. It’s hard for me to not think about Princess T when I’m in the house. Even if she’s sleeping or someone else is watching her. They really tired me out though. Like I am so out of shape.
Otherwise, wow those walking kilometres! We had some fantastic weather this month. I started to feel way more confident walking longer distances again and did quite a few 5k walks. Time outside felt really great.
I have started doing some old physio (leg/knee) exercises when I’m playing on the floor with Princess T and I think it’s making a difference. It’s really showing me that I need to incorporate the strength training again.
There just aren’t enough hours in the day. DH keeps saying we’ll figure something out to get me more time to exercise, but it’s tough. I know we’ll figure it out eventually. And it’ll get easier as Princess T gets a little older and we get into a routine. I hope. That’s all I can do right now.
October goals: I might just copy September honestly, with some addendums:
1. Read something from my PPD resources at least once per week
2. Try to incorporate a short yoga session 3 times per week.
3. Try to run once per week (if I can start working up to twice per week I think this will be a huge boost but not putting that pressure on myself)
4. Keep up the walking as weather permits!