Beforesunrise
Earning My Ears
- Joined
- Apr 2, 2016
I am a long time poster here on the Dis but I created a new name for privacy. My husband and I have been trying to have a baby for many months but it just hasn't worked out. After extensive testing, we found out that it's unlikely that it ever will even with help (i.e. Ivf). And I am devastated. Just absolutely devastated. I feel like I've let down my husband and that guilt is eating me alive. He tells me he loves me and that we'll get through this... But I feel so lost. I'm not against adoption. I was adopted as an infant into a wonderful loving family. I just wanted someone that was a part of me, if that makes sense.
We are the last of our friends without a child, and with each pregnancy announcement my heart hurts a little bit more. I am so happy for everybody but also jealous. And that jealousy makes me feel like a terrible person.
I don't know exactly what advice I'm looking for, maybe I just needed to vent. Thanks for taking the time to read this.
We are the last of our friends without a child, and with each pregnancy announcement my heart hurts a little bit more. I am so happy for everybody but also jealous. And that jealousy makes me feel like a terrible person.
I don't know exactly what advice I'm looking for, maybe I just needed to vent. Thanks for taking the time to read this.