pjlla
DIS Veteran
- Joined
- Oct 21, 2003
Hi all! Sorry for being MIA all weekend. It is not a good time right now.
My heat in my apartment is so inconsistent and no one can seem to figure out why. Its NYC so no rebates on the days without heat, and honestly, I'm broke. I can't buy a space heater because I can't afford the electricity bills.
The worst part of it all is that my company is very slow right now, meaning that the chances of my salary getting raised anytime in the next 9 months is incredibly low.
Right now, its getting me SO down. I'm trying so hard to stay strong, and I really have been very good about not indulging in comfort food during this time. But, here I am, 10 pounds lesser than when I started, and I haven't purchased new clothing in YEARS. I haven't needed to, but now, I'm so bundled up under all my layers to keep warm, and everything is big on me.
I guess I just need to get up the courage to quit my job and find something new. If only my father wasn't the boss of the company...
aaaaand end rant!
Sorry to be a Debbie Downer, I am trying to take pride in the NSV of not eating my feelings, but I just needed to vent a bit.
In fact, on Friday, instead of going out to an Italian restaurant, I offered to cook for my friend. Some whole wheat pasta and store bought sauce meant I knew exactly what I was eating, and I could eat exactly the portion I wanted to - and have leftovers for this week! It was a good move on our part!
BBL with replies and some daily holidays!
I'm so sorry you are going through all of this! If it is something that the landlord should be fixing and isn't, can't you go to a some sort of State department of housing or something and get them to work on it??
Anyhow.... SO PROUD of you for not eating into your feelings!! I'll bet having that VICTORY over the food made your feel better on Friday!!
Kind of a silly thought, but do you pay for hot water or does your landlord? If it is part of your rent, turn the shower on high and hot to warm the apartment up!
It maybe time to look into a part time job or a shift in your spending if you are really struggling. Not judging, just feeling badly. If you were my DD, I would say the same thing. Maybe time to eat some cheaper foods (but still healthier) for a while to redirect some money from the grocery bill to the electric bill?
For the time being, drink lots of hot tea (and cradle the mug to keep your hands warm), invest in one of those warm packs that are filled with rice or buckwheat. Just a minute or two in the microwave and it will keep your neck or feet warm for an hour! And remember.... being cold helps burn calories!
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TM time is DONE, laundry is moving along, bathroom sinks are soaking with ammonia and hot water, beds are made. Time to grab some lunch and do my WW studying so I can move on to more cleaning and decluttering!........P