bethbuchall
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- Jul 10, 2003
Having a hard time tonight. My DD was home for 9 day Fall break which I LOVED. She is an only child so having her home was just wonderful. And better yet NONE of her friends had a Fall Break! LOL. so we had her all to ourselves. Funny thing when I dropped her off in August (she is 2 hours away) I was full of nerves. Would the roomie work? Would she make friends? Will she do ok? She knew no one and when I left I felt at peace in August and never really felt sad I think b/c too worried about her. This time around the drop off was so different for me. I was SAD. I feel lost tonight...I guess I think b/c I feel at this time things are going well for her I can say in my head this is the way it should be and I should be happy, but I am feeling a little sorry for ME tonight. She was anxious to get back and I could tell she had her fill here at home with just mom and dad.
That's how I still feel every time my older son (and his wife!) and my daughter leave. And I felt that way after having my younger one home for a way too quick weekend a couple of weeks ago and even more so after I spent the long weekend with him and my daughter last week. We really do want them to be thriving in their new environment, but it still pulls at us how they are gaining independence. Happy, so happy for them! And just a bit sad for me...
Actually, it started that day my oldest, who had a really rough time with separation in preschool, waltzed off to his kindergarten class room without a single glance back at me. Of course, I was thrilled that he transitioned to kindergarten so well after weeks of nerves (on both of our parts), but that tiny bit inside of me was sad that he didn't need me quite so much anymore. We don't want to hold them back from life, so we keep that sad quiet, but it leaks out a little every now and then when we're alone.