DisneyObsessive
DIS Veteran
- Joined
- Jul 14, 2004
Hi everyone. Some of you know me, some of you don't. I tend to be in and out on this boards, frequent for a month or two, disappear for amonth or two, rinse and repeat.
Anyway, my mom passed away a month ago yesterday. It was very sudden, she was only 51 and she had been sick for over 2 weeks, was on lots of antibiotics and then she wasnt responsive one day and we had to call the paramedics. They said she went into cardiac arrest on top of complications from pneumonia, which we didnt even know she had (and being she made several dr visits and the dr never checked her lungs knowing full well shes an asthmatic, we are prob going to file a malpractice suit).
Her body couldn't handle it all, I guess.
She's left behind my father, whose also 51, my brother who just turned 26 this week and myself whose 20. Its been very tough... I never thought I would lose my mother at a young age, so suddenly.... so many things she won't be here to see, college graduation, my first apartment on my own, my first published article (i am a journalism major), my wedding... all big events that will now be bittersweet when they come along.
Its been a month but it feels like just yesterday and yet at the same time, almost as if it hasn't happened at all. It's all very hard to wrap my head around.
My mom really saved me. Some of you may have remembered me posting a year and a ahalf or so back about me entering recovery for anorexia. Its weird to think that my mom, who i fought so much with over the eating disorder (as well as anxiety,depression, and self-injury) turned out to be the one who supported me the most. I mean, i didnt see it then. But i see it now. I wish i had not put her through all of that.... things i had been struggling for the past 7 years... that she knew about for the past 3... but at the same time I am glad to know that she saw me get better. Ive been "recovered" from my anorexia since October, though its still a struggle, and have come very far in a short amount of time and I'm glad she got to see that at the very least.
My mom also introduced me to Disney. She brought me at the age of 2 in 88... and suprised us with another trip 10 years later. She was never a "fanatic". Sometimes rolled her eyes at me for my fanaticism, heh. But she loved it there. We went back again in 03 and even though she would make fun of me for my love of it, she loved it too. Her eyes lit up just like mine did. And she loved that, despite everything i was struggling with, Disney was my one true place of happiness. She loved that she could give that to me. And I love her for giving it. She said to me a few months back how she actually wanted to go back even though she "hated to admit it" ha. I'm sorry that she can't.
I'm going with my friend in may. The very day prior to her passing, my friend and I came up with this crazy idea to go for star wars weekends. We came up with it in about 30 minutes, I asked her, all ready with a list of reasons to convince her... and all she said was "yes." I jumped for joy. I danced around the house the whole day. I told her she was "the best mother ever". And you know what she said? "I know, I've been telling you that for years!"
That was my mother.
Anyway. This post came out waaaay longer than i expected heh. Point is, my mom did great things for me in my 20 years of life. Now i want to do great things in honor of her for the rest of my years.
And I'm going ride it's a small world for her come this may-june... even though I HATE that ride haha but it was her favorite. I'll go through the hell of dancing dolls for her.
I would really love to do something very special for her at disney, but i don't know what.... if anyone has any ideas thatd be great.
And of course any thoughts and supports are appreciated. This is really a struggle but I know the community here is amazing.
And full of lots of wonderful moms like mine, showing their children the magic of Disney along with giving their endless support, love and care to them.
And for all the younger DISers, you might have days where you think you hate her, but the love between you two is stronger than you will ever imagine. So go hug your moms for me.
-Christine
Anyway, my mom passed away a month ago yesterday. It was very sudden, she was only 51 and she had been sick for over 2 weeks, was on lots of antibiotics and then she wasnt responsive one day and we had to call the paramedics. They said she went into cardiac arrest on top of complications from pneumonia, which we didnt even know she had (and being she made several dr visits and the dr never checked her lungs knowing full well shes an asthmatic, we are prob going to file a malpractice suit).
Her body couldn't handle it all, I guess.
She's left behind my father, whose also 51, my brother who just turned 26 this week and myself whose 20. Its been very tough... I never thought I would lose my mother at a young age, so suddenly.... so many things she won't be here to see, college graduation, my first apartment on my own, my first published article (i am a journalism major), my wedding... all big events that will now be bittersweet when they come along.
Its been a month but it feels like just yesterday and yet at the same time, almost as if it hasn't happened at all. It's all very hard to wrap my head around.
My mom really saved me. Some of you may have remembered me posting a year and a ahalf or so back about me entering recovery for anorexia. Its weird to think that my mom, who i fought so much with over the eating disorder (as well as anxiety,depression, and self-injury) turned out to be the one who supported me the most. I mean, i didnt see it then. But i see it now. I wish i had not put her through all of that.... things i had been struggling for the past 7 years... that she knew about for the past 3... but at the same time I am glad to know that she saw me get better. Ive been "recovered" from my anorexia since October, though its still a struggle, and have come very far in a short amount of time and I'm glad she got to see that at the very least.
My mom also introduced me to Disney. She brought me at the age of 2 in 88... and suprised us with another trip 10 years later. She was never a "fanatic". Sometimes rolled her eyes at me for my fanaticism, heh. But she loved it there. We went back again in 03 and even though she would make fun of me for my love of it, she loved it too. Her eyes lit up just like mine did. And she loved that, despite everything i was struggling with, Disney was my one true place of happiness. She loved that she could give that to me. And I love her for giving it. She said to me a few months back how she actually wanted to go back even though she "hated to admit it" ha. I'm sorry that she can't.
I'm going with my friend in may. The very day prior to her passing, my friend and I came up with this crazy idea to go for star wars weekends. We came up with it in about 30 minutes, I asked her, all ready with a list of reasons to convince her... and all she said was "yes." I jumped for joy. I danced around the house the whole day. I told her she was "the best mother ever". And you know what she said? "I know, I've been telling you that for years!"
That was my mother.
Anyway. This post came out waaaay longer than i expected heh. Point is, my mom did great things for me in my 20 years of life. Now i want to do great things in honor of her for the rest of my years.
And I'm going ride it's a small world for her come this may-june... even though I HATE that ride haha but it was her favorite. I'll go through the hell of dancing dolls for her.
I would really love to do something very special for her at disney, but i don't know what.... if anyone has any ideas thatd be great.
And of course any thoughts and supports are appreciated. This is really a struggle but I know the community here is amazing.
And full of lots of wonderful moms like mine, showing their children the magic of Disney along with giving their endless support, love and care to them.
And for all the younger DISers, you might have days where you think you hate her, but the love between you two is stronger than you will ever imagine. So go hug your moms for me.
-Christine
I am so sorry for your loss. You are the same age as my son. He went through a terrible 5-6 years in middle and high school and made my life a living hell. Even though he told me daily that he hated me, I never hated him. Eventually he came to understand that love heals all things. Because of that experience I can assure you unequivocally that your mother, in her wisdom, never hated you and she never gave up on you. She understood the ways of a growing up young adult 
The best thing you can do for her now is to live your life in such a way that it brings honor to her memory. Make it worth all her sacrifice. 
Perhaps you can bring along some bubbles to blow as you go through Small World or make a donation to Make a Wish Foundation in your mother's name.
Here we were at the happiest place on earth looking absolutely miserable! We started laughing about it soon after getting off the ride, wondering what people thought!
And you know that's exactly what my brother would have liked, that we were laughing. So try to enjoy your trip and remember your Mom with a smile.
