Happyinwonerland
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- Jul 1, 2014
Rodeo, I am so sorry to hear that. I know there are probably no words that can help you right now, but we are all here pulling for you and your Dh, ready to be your cheerleaders and supporters.
I'm so sorry to hear about your husband, and I'm sending prayers and hugs. That must be awful for all of you, very scary.
I did want to share one piece of advice: Don't keep things from your kids. I am heavily involved in a non-profit which sends families with a sick parent (life-threatening illnesses) on trips. I've seen too many times parents choose to keep the truth from their children, and then things take unexpected turns and their children are left with no time to process. They think, at the time, they're helping, keeping them from not being stressed, but the reality is kids know whether you tell them or not. A therapist/social worker can help with words for this, how much to tell them, etc. But overall it's good to be honest with them in an age-appropriate way. They need time to work things out, just like us adults do.
"Liking" your post doesn't seem quite appropriate, but I wanted to let you know I'm following and you're on my mind.Today was insanely hectic! Garbage day that I forgot about so had to run around collecting to try to get ahead of the trucks. I won that one. Meeting at the hospital with the social worker. Meeting at the school. Meeting with the family doctor (at the practice) who seems to be able to put everything together for me better than the internist has been able to do. Meeting back at the hospital with an oncology NP. Go back out to get DH food because he actually wants to eat something for a change and hates the food "inside." Pick up son from work. Collapse.
The bad news of the day is that the tissue samples from the biopsy were inadequate for all of the testing they need to do to determine origin, although they believe origin to be pancreas. This means DH has to undergo another biopsy tomorrow. They are also doing an endoscopy, which I am actually happy about because his voice is weird. It has been for about a month. Raspy and whispery. So I'm glad they're scoping to have a look. It worries me though, because where else might it be?
The good news was his heart has stabilised on beta blockers to the point they have removed the monitor. He was really happy to be free from his "buddy." And the doctor is discussing discharge, possibly early next week and when talking about it said this was not discharging him to go home for palliative care, they expect to have a treatment plan and for him to fight it. I so hope it hasn't advanced too far! This is hopefully what a second biopsy will tell.
Thank you all for your support. Biopsy results came back today. Cancer. Pancreas and liver. That's all I know right now.
Looking at some of the positives - I am really glad you have the good support of your primary care physician. That's huge! And it sounds like your DH is getting decent care in the hospital. (Complaining about the food is actually a good sign! It means someone can eat!) Appetite is better, and heart rate has stabilized. Good! Next step, see what happens with further testing. Testing and waiting are really difficult, as you've found out. That really stinks.Today was insanely hectic! Garbage day that I forgot about so had to run around collecting to try to get ahead of the trucks. I won that one. Meeting at the hospital with the social worker. Meeting at the school. Meeting with the family doctor (at the practice) who seems to be able to put everything together for me better than the internist has been able to do. Meeting back at the hospital with an oncology NP. Go back out to get DH food because he actually wants to eat something for a change and hates the food "inside." Pick up son from work. Collapse.
The bad news of the day is that the tissue samples from the biopsy were inadequate for all of the testing they need to do to determine origin, although they believe origin to be pancreas. This means DH has to undergo another biopsy tomorrow. They are also doing an endoscopy, which I am actually happy about because his voice is weird. It has been for about a month. Raspy and whispery. So I'm glad they're scoping to have a look. It worries me though, because where else might it be?
The good news was his heart has stabilised on beta blockers to the point they have removed the monitor. He was really happy to be free from his "buddy." And the doctor is discussing discharge, possibly early next week and when talking about it said this was not discharging him to go home for palliative care, they expect to have a treatment plan and for him to fight it. I so hope it hasn't advanced too far! This is hopefully what a second biopsy will tell.
This made me so sad! I'm sure they thought they were protecting you, though. I think much of the thinking is different today - hopefully.I second this. My mom had breast cancer when I was younger (I was 18 months when she was first diagnosed and 18 years when she died - a number of "bouts" with the disease in between). I used to sneak into their bathroom when they were out, copy down the names of the drugs she was one, and then research them in the library to try to figure out exactly what was going on and how sick she was. For me, part of it was thinking that I'd cause my parents too much stress if I asked too many questions.
DH lost his mom to cancer when he was a young teen, his older sisters (in their 20’s) knew, DH had no idea it was terminal until he was called out of school and told his mother died.I'm so sorry to hear about your husband, and I'm sending prayers and hugs. That must be awful for all of you, very scary.
I did want to share one piece of advice: Don't keep things from your kids. I am heavily involved in a non-profit which sends families with a sick parent (life-threatening illnesses) on trips. I've seen too many times parents choose to keep the truth from their children, and then things take unexpected turns and their children are left with no time to process. They think, at the time, they're helping, keeping them from not being stressed, but the reality is kids know whether you tell them or not. A therapist/social worker can help with words for this, how much to tell them, etc. But overall it's good to be honest with them in an age-appropriate way. They need time to work things out, just like us adults do.