I'm overwhelmed with the support and that you all have continued to read and follow along. Thank you so much! I wish I could respond to each of you individually, but just simply don't have the capacity right now. I stayed home a little later this morning to try and get a few things done at home. It looks like a bomb hit it. Hard to imagine but my teenagers didn't miraculously turn into neat and tidy kids.
For the posters who have commented about including them - I have. They are fully aware of where things sit and what we are looking at. They also know that I will be asking more of them in terms of help around the house, more responsibility for their own needs - having had a stay at home mom for a number of years, they've grown accustomed to a level of "coddling" DH would say, I would call it support. In any case, they know that will be diminished. I also have felt very strongly about them not being sheltered from their father's diagnosis and what he is going through. When I was 18 my father was rushed to the hospital with an allergic reaction. I didn't know what was happening, just that he was in really bad shape. My mom wouldn't let me come and it was the next morning before I found out what was going on and if he had lived. That night is still so vivid and I never want my kids to go through something like that.
Ok, and now I'm off to the hospital again. As DH says - lets see what goodies are sent our way today.
It's nice that your DH still has a flicker of humor going! That's great. (Not sure if you know, but I am a hospital nurse and take care of people with devastating diagnoses, so even that little bit of sarcasm is good, from my perspective!)
No worries about answering individually; I think I can probably speak for most of us in saying we're happy to know you're just reading. (And that maybe we can help in some small way by offering you support here.)
You sound like you're doing great, given your difficult situation. Really.
I also agree with ronandannette, that I'm so glad to hear that your kids are aware and involved. Give them some time to digest, and express/process their emotions. Then later, you can explain to them that one of the things they can do to help -
that you need them to do, to help - is to help keep the house tidy because
it makes it harder for you to help your husband/their Dad when the house is a mess! Get them to understand that if they could at least take care of things around the house (as best they can, including cleaning up after themselves, maybe throwing in a load of wash, taking care of the trash, etc.), that that will free you (and your mind) up a little bit to focus on the
many other things you now need to do to help their Dad. You can explain to them that these things can be numerous and difficult, and that they might not even be aware you're doing them, like making phone calls, looking into insurances, making treatment decisions, booking appointments, paying bills, all that sort of thing that takes up a lot of energy and sometimes emotion at a time like this. If they could deal with the house, and their school things, that would be a little less that you have to worry about right now.
If an aunt, friend, grandmother, neighbor, or whoever, offers to help in that regard, too, consider taking them up on the offer (even though it's hard).